| [28 November 2006] Hopeless
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I never asked for signs, but I keep seeing some once in a while. But am I really seeing these signs, or am I just too desperate and always looking around for something to bring my hopes up?
A good friend told me, "Alam mo, in life, you should take some risks. You just have to be strong when you do." Last night, I took a risk and did something that I wouldn't normally do, but I did it anyway, hoping that it will turn out well. Unfortunately, it didn't. The plan was never meant to happen. And even then, he was so nice that he didn't exactly turn me down, but he couldn't give me a straight answer. Then, he changed the subject. Now I don't think I can ever show myself to him. I'd be really embarassed.
I really am hopeless in this area.
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| [23 November 2006] Nakita ko na rin!
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"Seek and you shall find."Yeah right. "Seek and you shall NOT find" is more like it.
Usually, when you're eager to see someone, you look for that person everywhere. As much as possible, you try to pass by the areas where that person might be. But you never get to see him/her. And then suddenly, for that single, brief moment that you do not think about him/her, you finally see him/her. S/he shows up, and you're completely caught off-guard. Well, at least you saw him/her, right?
Anyway... haha... Happy Happy, Joy Joy.
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| [20 November 2006] Ipis
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Maaaring hindi ko pa nararanasan ang lahat ng pwede kong maranasan sa aking buhay. Ngunit eto ang mapagmamalaki ko. Sa loob ng mag-a-apat ko nang taon sa kolehiyo...
Nakapag-dissect na ko ng ipis. Hindi lang palaka at pusa, kundi ipis na din. Crunchy. Juicy. At maganda pa raw ang pagka-dissect ko. Hahaha.
Kaya't nagpapasalamat kami sa mga ipis na nagbuwis at nagsakripisyo ng kanilang buhay upang mabigyan ng karagdagang kaalaman ang mga mag-aaral ng Kolehiyo ng Pampublikong Kalusugan tungkol sa mga lamang-loob nito. Nawa'y hindi kami gantihan ng mga kamag-anak niyo, lalo na yung mga lumilipad (Huwaaaag poooooh!).
Pero ah, sa unang pagkakataon siguro, naawa ako sa kanya. Biruin mo, mangisay-ngisay na siya nung ilagay mo siya sa garapong may ether. Matapos siya ma-anesthesize, puputulin mo pa yung paa (hindi rin naman siya immobilized, noh?). Kawawa.
"Alam mo, wala na kong ibang hinangad kundi ang mapalapit sa'yo, pero patuloy ang pag-iwas mo..."
-- ipis
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| [17 November 2006] Just plain sad.
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They never should've told me anything.
I should've followed my own advice.
I shouldn't have let myself get carried away in that silly daydream.
Coz in the end,
I'll just keep on waiting and waiting... again and again...
...for nothing.
And I'll end up disappointed. And it's all my fault.
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| [13 November 2006] It's a good think blogs don't allow s-tut-tut-stut-tering
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Unlike many others, I don't hate the government (OK, shoot me now, "many others". But don't get me wrong, I don't love it either). Although yes, I know that some are really stupid and corrupt, and their asses do not have a place in the seats their occupying right now, but I can see that some are really trying, doing their best, and I can see results. A lot of people wants PGMA impeached, but really, who or what do you want to replace her? It's not just a matter of 'Better the devil you know than the devil you don't know.' How can you be so sure that when she gets replaced, everyting will turn out fine?
I'm a centrist. I'm for compromise, meeting halfway, getting both sides of the story. And this is why I'm not really into joining rallies. Being in UP, you will probably not graduate without getting invited to join at least one rally. It's almost a trademark in the University. But it's not that I don't want to get involved in these sort of issues that people rally about: greater state subsidy, political repression, killings, etc. I just don't want to get involved THAT way. Not that it's pointless, either. But we all know that not everyone listens, yet people continue to protest. It's becoming very repetitive. I think that alternatives should be thought of that would make both parties satisfied, present demands that are more feasible to obtain.
Obviously, I have cluttered thoughts (see above). And this also leads me to my new found reason why I shouldn't attend rallies.
To make the story short, I joined one this morning because it was for former UP President Nemenzo. And as a Student Council Chairperson, I was requested to make some sort of statement. If there is one thing I really CANNOT handle well, it's being put on the spot, simply because: I have cluttered thoughts. It was my first time to do that, so I just babbled and stuttered and made a fool out of myself (and plus plus, which I'd rather not mention anymore). It was really embarrassing that I don't ever want to show up in any LCC or ALC meetings.
I'm really not made for this. Losing face... what a great way to start the semester.
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| [04 November 2006] New layout @ 100th
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Finally, finished my new layout. Wow, and it's my 100th post. Yey. Ouran Koukou Host Club rocks, BTW (Yes, I do like anime, FYI.).
Still have lots to change, though. Tagboard's still not up (previous one suddenly would not work, and still couldn't find one that I want), and so while that's not fixed, you can just leave a comment.
Our group will be collecting data for our thesis next week, so I'll be away. Oh, our Special Study is entitled, The Prevalence and Intensity of Pediculus humanus capitis in Elementary Schoolchildren in Batong Malake, Los Banos, Laguna. Collecting data = collecting head lice. Yaaaaaaah. My batchmates have been telling us that we shouldn't go near them when we get back. Meanies.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHEECKO AND LADY!!!!
Duck Squad, mga baks, miss ko na kayo!
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