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[11 August 2005] Disappointments... and Fulfillments

It's time I had some serious entries...

I've been nothing but a disappointment not only to my parents, but also to myself, for the first half of the semester. Well... my parents don't exactly know how bad I've been doing, but if they did... they would be VERY disappointed. Di ko alam kung paano ko gagawin yung pinangako ko sa mommy ko

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I failed my first exam in Anatomy...
...almost failed that in Physiology... (but I passed, thank you Lord!)

...and I'm almost sure I'm going to fail my exams in Biochemistry, lecture and laboratory.

This is SO not me. Hindi ko alam kung bakit naging ubod ako ng tamad... actually, tamad nga pala ako. Mas mysteryoso pala kung paano ako umabot sa naabot ko noon. I used to be really grade-conscious... actually, I still am. Kaya nga ako nagkakaganito... I want good grades, pero parang di ko na magawang magsipag para mag-aral. I procrastinate... exam after exam after exam. And it's really frustrating, you know? How am I going to make it to medical school with this attitude?!?

What's wrong with me? Useless rant... Grr. Pasensya sa mga nagbabasa.

Haay... BTW, another disappointment. We had Hematology in Physio lab this morning, and we did blood extraction through venipuncture - syringe method. I made 3 attmepts, all unsuccessful. Kawawa nga si Lea, nabutasan ng tatlong beses braso niya ng hindi oras... all because I did a bad job. Di man ako magiging doctor, eh pano na ko magiging med tech sa lagay na toh?!?

Despite all these... I just had a sense of fulfillment lately

. I do hope I'm right, but I'm almost sure that I'm going to pass my second Anatomy exam!

And I think that I did okay, you know, enough to pull my first exam up to a get a passing average grade. Well, I still kind of crammed for the exam, pero parang mas maayos yung naging pag-aaral ko nung gabing yun. I tried my best to focus and absorb everything that I was reading.

I should work harder and study earlier, noh? Sana sipagin na ako. Sana talaga.

Oh yeah! Who would think that I could become an arranger? Sir Nikos asked me to make an SAB arrangement of Til They Take My Heart Away, which I did in just about 2 or 3 days. It's very simple though. Sabi naman ni Bullet, ang kinikilala kong daddy sa Chorale, maganda naman raw. Di ko lang alam kung saan nila kinanta yun... but anyway, I got an honorarium for it, P200!!!

It's the first time I earned money by myself, through my own work. This really is a fulfillment for me. Too bad I used the money already. Papa-frame ko sana. Hehehe.